Sunday, January 30, 2011
Friday, January 28, 2011
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
All this to say, to all my village friends: Thank you. Thank you for supporting me and encouraging me. Thank you for sharing your stories and the fears you had when you were going to be a new mommy or daddy. Thank you for reminding me that it will all be ok because God is bigger and stronger than myself, and He would never give me anything that I couldn't handle. It doesn't matter how bogged down I get with life or how difficult the journey is, I know I can trust in God to pull me through. To be perfectly honest, I don't see how I can do this any other way.
many and bitter,
you will restore my life again;
from the depths of the earth
you will again bring me up.
Sunday, January 23, 2011
Thursday, January 13, 2011
Monday, January 10, 2011
Saturday, January 8, 2011
Life has been a roller coaster these last nine months or so. I married the most wonderful man on the planet. I started taking more classes towards some unknown degree... Found out I was pregnant... I guess my husband and I didn't think it was really that easy. We were planning on waiting 5 years or so to start a family, but I guess God had other plans.
Being pregnant has had its highs and lows from the very beginning. Apparently, like most everything in my life, everyone else around me knew I was pregnant way before I did. The day I decided to find out for myself, I was at the grocery store with my adopted grandpa. I stopped off in the restroom when we got to the store. Later in the produce section he stopped me and asked quite awkwardly, 'Shyla, I don't mean to be rude or anything, but, are you sure your not pregnant? Because you sure do go to the bathroom a lot.' After I calmed down from laughing my head off, I informed him that my frequent bathroom stops did not mean I was pregnant!
Well, after that I was curious... I didn't feel any different, at this point anyways. My clothes were a little more snug than normal, but my weight has been up and down my whole life. So I went home and tested for pregnancy. And I tested again....and again... I had to make sure. To make sure it was %100 what the tests said they were, I called my mother... 'Mom, what does it mean when there are two pink solid lines on a pregnancy test?' Instantly she start yelling and screaming and crying and saying that she was going to be a grandma. Crap.
I sat down at the kitchen table...and to be honest, a handful of not so nice words spilled out. I went through moments of rage to moments of excitement. Thoughts flew through my brain at a thousand miles an hour...your too young...you just got married...you don't know how to be a mommy... you can't afford this... At that point I decided to call the husband, while he was at work.. 'Hi babe, how are you? Umm... I'm pregnant.' CLICK! (it was him who hung up, not me) Two hours later he called me back to make sure what I said was, well, what I said. After the shock wore off he was the most excited daddy to be I had ever seen!
No one ever told me how sick you could get while being pregnant, unfortunately I had to find out the hard way... For two months I was stuck in bed or with my face in the porcelain throne all day and night waiting to die. I couldn't go to work and I had to drop out of my classes because I was so MISERABLE and sick. During this time I thought about Eve back in Genesis when God told her he was going to increase her labor pains and make pregnancy a more difficult after she ate from the forbidden fruit. These thoughts were not pleasant thoughts mind you.. If only I could go back in time and slap some sense into Eve...
Right now I am almost 24 weeks along and feeling AMAZING!!! I still have days where I worship the porcelain throne, but those are far and very few between. I am grateful for this wonderful miracle that God has blessed us with! Even though it was quite easy to come by... He has given my husband and I a great responsibility-to raise a human being to become more and more like Jesus, to walk in faith day by day, and to make a life long impact on those around her. Yes her. We will be bring a little girl into the world.
Currently, all I see is pink and bows and flowers! I have decided that I have to get all the dresses and girlyness in while I still can before her dad starts taking her rock climbing, mud pie making, and on long shower-less bug filled camping trips! Until then, I am enjoying all the naps and quiet time I can get before it all gets thrown out the window.